A Few More

Now and Then

It was me.

I don’t deny it.

I never did.

Eyes wide open.

I had no problem

Being a cheerleader.

But I wasn’t even

Invited to the game.

I read the great reviews though.

I had no problem

Waiting in the wings.

But then the lights dimmed

And everyone else was gone.

I heard the after party was amazing.

I had no problem

Holding down the fort.

But then I realized

I was the only one fighting.

I never saw the signs of a war.

I had no problem

Being invisible

But I thought

You saw me.

I felt you walk right through me.

I didn’t used to

Have all these problems

But now, well,

I guess I do.

Copyright © 2010 Natasha Guy

Explanation

Now you can be free

Without considering me.

But that’s not why                                                                  

The door shut.

Now there are no worries about being late

No rushing to reach me with an update.

But that’s not why

I walked away.

Megaphones don’t help

When there is no audience.

Spouting questions is useless

When deemed unworthy of answers.

I don’t mind the shadows,

It’s cooler there anyway.

When the dark is so deep

That I disappear,

Even I forget that

I exist.

That is why

There is no later.

Copyright © 2010 Natasha Guy

You and Me

You didn’t want to be that guy.

You weren’t.

And I still got hurt.

You wanted to be successful and strong.

You are.

And I still got hurt.

You wanted the world.

You got it.

And I still got hurt.

I’m so happy

You got what you wanted.

And yeah, I’m still hurt.

But then again,

I’m still me.

Copyright © 2010 Natasha Guy