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Departure

The thoughts were there;

I pushed them back.

Then you were there,

But memories “we” lacked.

Whenever I had a question,

I felt as if I was invading.

Then came feelings of guilt

And of course the tears were cascading.

I’m not good at this game.

I’m needy, I know.

But I could have sworn the disclaimer

Said it; was it too tiny to show?

We both agreed to take this journey

To see if we could build more.

I wish the problem were

That there was no more to explore.

I know I’m impatient.

You aren’t the first to say that.

Eventually someone will see that I’m

A great addition to their act.

All I know is that I was unhappy

And maybe friends is where we should be.

Then I can’t be hurt at all

When your thoughts never land on me.

I tried to be understanding.

God knows I tried to be strong.

But by then I felt invisible

And time between us grew too long.

I asked repeatedly.

It felt wrong to beg.

It wouldn’t change anyway,

So I went away instead.

I’m not placing blame with you,

I’m not saying there was no fun.

But when my feelings held no weight,

The fun that was there was done.

                                                               

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