Ok ok...so I'm still working on the procrastination thing! I'm trying ok? Ok! So....the mad dash to finish Reverb today and semi on time starts!
25 – Photo – a present to yourself Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and [...]
This here says it all. They are my world. My babies. Their smiles are worth more than anything. Their love is beyond value. And...they aren't nekky as it would seem lol. They are running around the house in shorts because it was hot. They decided to tickle me in the midst of it all. I grabbed this cloudy, non-perfect shot with my phone. But this...is what life is about.
26 – Soul Food What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul?
So much actually LOL! I'm a complete foodie and I love to cook. I think 2010 was the year that I went to several restaurants to which I had never been thanks to my guy. He made it his mission to "expose" me to different places...and he most certainly did!
27 – Ordinary Joy. Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year?
My most ordinary moment was watching him sleep. It was extraordinary though, because I knew that he'd be there when I woke up. Waking up to one of those smiles and those arms is a great memory and moment every time it happens.
28 – Achieve. What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.
This seems like a running theme and one I've answered before. Writing, publishing, businesses and travel. I'll feel like I've accomplished a goal and push for the next. It's never complete...there's always something else to strive towards. I make efforts towards my achievements each day...at least 10 of them. Next!
29 – Defining Moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year.
Gaining and losing/ending friendships. I've found some friends that I think I'll be keeping forever. But I've been wrong before. And I'm sure I'll be wrong again. I've ended friendships that I felt would never end. Finally letting those go gave me such freedom though. It's amazing to feel like you can be you and not be judged for it. And it's terrible when people use who you are to condemn you simply because they don't know you. Such is life. Relax, Relate, Release, Rebuild!
30 – Gift Prompt: Gift. This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year?
I had more time with my loved ones than expected. I had someone push me past fear. I had someone embrace me, knowing I'm crazy =) Immortal Love will always be the best gift in the world for me.
31 – Core Story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.)
Hah! This one's easy. Immortal Love, family, and friends. Cultivating stronger relationships with those that matter and care; cutting loose the ones that don't want to be there. I share it through my blogging, writing, tweeting, speaking, actions. I truly believe in keeping a clear social circle. It's not easy, but it is possible. We all get clutter from time to time, so keep that broom handy =)
This Reverb thing was great! I didn't do it daily, but I was able to finish the whole month. Progress!
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Monday, January 31, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Reverb10/11: Days 18-24!
Ok Ok so I fell a littttttle bit behind lol. I'm catching up today! Let the madness begin!
18 – Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?
I want to try being more open in my personal relationships. I tried this same thing in 2010, but made very little progress. I've already made progress this year; more than my total progress last year. When I tried last year, I had a break down or something. I don't know what to call it, but it wasn't pretty. This year is and will continue to be better! Viva Change!
19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
Some of my insecurities were healed in 2010. That road is a long one and I try to take a step on it all the time. Sometimes it happens and sometimes I even fall further behind my hike. I'd like to actually continue on that same "drip-by-drip evolution" but maybe get it up to a steady trickle this year! Insecurities and trust issues often piggy back. I usually have them in check...but sometimes, like everyone else, I slip and have to regain my own footing.
20 – Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
In 2010, I wanted to start a business. I have 2 mapped out. There were several reasons why they didn't happen, but they most certainly will! This year, hopefully by August I'll have at least one up and running. *crossing fingers* I would love to have both of them up by the end of the year. Only time (and me trying to cure my procrastination) will tell!
21 – Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?)
Future self would say, omg do it already! So that I can be further than you ever dreamed. Yes, you'll be happy. Yes, you'll be in what you only thought was a dream. Take the leap and prepare to smile.
To Younger self: Babe, you get to have 2 kids. Not the way you want them, but you do get them. Things will be ok. Breathing, praying, crying and laughing will all be sources of refuge. Don't worry about using them sparingly, because there's always more where they came from.
22 – Travel How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year?
In 2010, I crossed the US from CA to LA, then from FL to CA via road trips (whew). This year, I want to possibly go to NY and IN (stateside) and Ireland, maybe Haiti too, as far as abroad. Again, only time will tell =)
23 – New Name Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why?
LOL!!! Sparkle or Toesox! Because they are nicknames I've grown quite fond of. I twirl, I laugh, I dance, and try to maintain my colorful attitude and style! My toesox were on my twitter and facebook profiles for a long while and have just recently changed. Something fun and bouncy would be my choice!
24 – Everything’s OK What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?
I had a momentary split/disagreement/issue with my guy last year. But I was somewhat stubborn and insisted it wouldn't be the end. And it wasn't. This of course reinstated/reinforced my believe in Immortal Love. It's tangible and invisible, strong and fragile, common and elusive, all in all...it's mine ♥
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18 – Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?
I want to try being more open in my personal relationships. I tried this same thing in 2010, but made very little progress. I've already made progress this year; more than my total progress last year. When I tried last year, I had a break down or something. I don't know what to call it, but it wasn't pretty. This year is and will continue to be better! Viva Change!
19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
Some of my insecurities were healed in 2010. That road is a long one and I try to take a step on it all the time. Sometimes it happens and sometimes I even fall further behind my hike. I'd like to actually continue on that same "drip-by-drip evolution" but maybe get it up to a steady trickle this year! Insecurities and trust issues often piggy back. I usually have them in check...but sometimes, like everyone else, I slip and have to regain my own footing.
20 – Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
In 2010, I wanted to start a business. I have 2 mapped out. There were several reasons why they didn't happen, but they most certainly will! This year, hopefully by August I'll have at least one up and running. *crossing fingers* I would love to have both of them up by the end of the year. Only time (and me trying to cure my procrastination) will tell!
21 – Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?)
Future self would say, omg do it already! So that I can be further than you ever dreamed. Yes, you'll be happy. Yes, you'll be in what you only thought was a dream. Take the leap and prepare to smile.
To Younger self: Babe, you get to have 2 kids. Not the way you want them, but you do get them. Things will be ok. Breathing, praying, crying and laughing will all be sources of refuge. Don't worry about using them sparingly, because there's always more where they came from.
22 – Travel How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year?
In 2010, I crossed the US from CA to LA, then from FL to CA via road trips (whew). This year, I want to possibly go to NY and IN (stateside) and Ireland, maybe Haiti too, as far as abroad. Again, only time will tell =)
23 – New Name Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why?
LOL!!! Sparkle or Toesox! Because they are nicknames I've grown quite fond of. I twirl, I laugh, I dance, and try to maintain my colorful attitude and style! My toesox were on my twitter and facebook profiles for a long while and have just recently changed. Something fun and bouncy would be my choice!
24 – Everything’s OK What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?
I had a momentary split/disagreement/issue with my guy last year. But I was somewhat stubborn and insisted it wouldn't be the end. And it wasn't. This of course reinstated/reinforced my believe in Immortal Love. It's tangible and invisible, strong and fragile, common and elusive, all in all...it's mine ♥
Copyright © 2011 Natasha Guy
Monday, January 17, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 16/17!
16 – Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst?
One of my friends allowed me the chance to sit with her mom keep her company. You never know what's going on with other folks until they let you see it. Her mom is awesome and gives me inspiration daily. My friend is awesome and the responsibilities that she shoulders are great. I try to stay open and I am constantly saying -Perception is everything. Mine changes daily as my eyes are opened to new things and new experiences.
17 – Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?
I learned that I need to work on patience that I have more faith in others that they have in themselves. I make sure to think before I speak, even when I'm upset. It's not perfect, but I'm doing it more than less these days, so I'm well on my way. So until my patience kicks in, I can at least mute my impatience and think before I speak. I'm a work in progress.
As far as the faith thing goes, I've started loaning mine out. When a friend lacks faith, I give 2 scoops of mine for them to borrow until theirs builds. I have tons and tons of faith in boatloads. I don't mind spreading it all around! *throws faith around the room* I have so many amazing people who surround me on a daily basis. If they have an ounce of belief in me...how could I not believe in all of them?
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One of my friends allowed me the chance to sit with her mom keep her company. You never know what's going on with other folks until they let you see it. Her mom is awesome and gives me inspiration daily. My friend is awesome and the responsibilities that she shoulders are great. I try to stay open and I am constantly saying -Perception is everything. Mine changes daily as my eyes are opened to new things and new experiences.
17 – Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?
I learned that I need to work on patience that I have more faith in others that they have in themselves. I make sure to think before I speak, even when I'm upset. It's not perfect, but I'm doing it more than less these days, so I'm well on my way. So until my patience kicks in, I can at least mute my impatience and think before I speak. I'm a work in progress.
As far as the faith thing goes, I've started loaning mine out. When a friend lacks faith, I give 2 scoops of mine for them to borrow until theirs builds. I have tons and tons of faith in boatloads. I don't mind spreading it all around! *throws faith around the room* I have so many amazing people who surround me on a daily basis. If they have an ounce of belief in me...how could I not believe in all of them?
Copyright © 2011 Natasha Guy
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 15!
15 – 5 Minutes. Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.
Them. Him. Nothing else matters.
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Them. Him. Nothing else matters.
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Friday, January 14, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 14!
14 – Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?
I have come to appreciate the differences in people. I try not to judge so quickly and to not just tolerate, but accept. That leads to appreciation. I also help people celebrate what makes them different and try to encourage them to be proud of who they are. *sigh* People are like colors of the rainbow; we all differ from the slight to the extreme, but we are all colors nonetheless.
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I have come to appreciate the differences in people. I try not to judge so quickly and to not just tolerate, but accept. That leads to appreciation. I also help people celebrate what makes them different and try to encourage them to be proud of who they are. *sigh* People are like colors of the rainbow; we all differ from the slight to the extreme, but we are all colors nonetheless.
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Thursday, January 13, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 12/13!
12 – Body Integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?
Hmmm....good question lol. I think I feel like this the most when I'm creating tangible things, jewelry, paintings, woodwork, etc. It's easiest for me to feel this way with jewelry, but hardest when I'm painting. While painting, I still try to force things into a perfect little box or image. Still learning, still working, still making progress on extending me.
13 – Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step?
My next step is finishing and publishing my novel and a new collection of poetry. I also want to start on my next verse novel...but I haven't yet. I'm also gaining clients monthly for my editing business. I'm hoping to start that business officially this year. Yayness!
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Hmmm....good question lol. I think I feel like this the most when I'm creating tangible things, jewelry, paintings, woodwork, etc. It's easiest for me to feel this way with jewelry, but hardest when I'm painting. While painting, I still try to force things into a perfect little box or image. Still learning, still working, still making progress on extending me.
13 – Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step?
My next step is finishing and publishing my novel and a new collection of poetry. I also want to start on my next verse novel...but I haven't yet. I'm also gaining clients monthly for my editing business. I'm hoping to start that business officially this year. Yayness!
Copyright © 2011 Natasha Guy
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 10/11!
10 – Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?
The wisest decision I made this year was to let go and move on from some friends/acquaintances that were hanging on like deadwood. It was really hard. They were there for multiple reasons, none of them good. It was difficult to walk away. However, once I cut the connections, I got freedom and lots of it. There is a time and place for everything....and sometimes it's here and now.
11 – 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?
1. FaceBook games - I took the biggest step, I blocked all my apps. The key is to stay off other gaming sites and not re-add these apps just because my friends miss the seeds/animals/coins/etc that I could give them as a fellow player.
2. Laziness - I will make plans and actually stick to them. I will keep myself busy and going. My January calendar is really full. I'm proud of myself.
3. Procrastination - I will and have contacted others to hold me accountable to things I must/need to do. I'm on the way.
4. Lack of focus - My lists are helping as well as friends and their expectations. Telling folks your plans will help you stay focussed, because they ask how you are progressing on them.
5. Thongs - I've tried...for several years...they are still butt floss...uncomfortable butt floss. I just don't wanna try any more! Plus I've found really awesome boyshorts that don't ride AND cover most of my derriere (yayness!).
6. Red lipstick - This is another thing that I try at least once a year. It's NOT for me. The end. I will not purchase another red tube of lipstick this year *footstomp*
7. Long hair - I think I want to force myself to do more with my hair this year. The only way to do that is to keep it short. The longer it gets, the more the option of a ponytail becomes real.
8. Headaches - This one is easy...kinda. If I constantly took my medication...it may help *sigh*
9. Confusion - This is where the lists come in again. I'm always feeling lost. If I make maps, I won't get lost...hopefully =) Here's a toast to maps, like to-do lists and daily planners!
10. Frienemies - I can constantly do without these folks. I am always on the hunt to scout them out and rid them from my social circles. The drama free zone lets in so much more positivity. It's not hard to be positive when you have metaphorically clear and sunny days.
11. Fear - This is my biggest hurdle. However, I've already started jumping it. I made it over the first one, didn't even graze the bar. *sticks out chest*
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The wisest decision I made this year was to let go and move on from some friends/acquaintances that were hanging on like deadwood. It was really hard. They were there for multiple reasons, none of them good. It was difficult to walk away. However, once I cut the connections, I got freedom and lots of it. There is a time and place for everything....and sometimes it's here and now.
11 – 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?
1. FaceBook games - I took the biggest step, I blocked all my apps. The key is to stay off other gaming sites and not re-add these apps just because my friends miss the seeds/animals/coins/etc that I could give them as a fellow player.
2. Laziness - I will make plans and actually stick to them. I will keep myself busy and going. My January calendar is really full. I'm proud of myself.
3. Procrastination - I will and have contacted others to hold me accountable to things I must/need to do. I'm on the way.
4. Lack of focus - My lists are helping as well as friends and their expectations. Telling folks your plans will help you stay focussed, because they ask how you are progressing on them.
5. Thongs - I've tried...for several years...they are still butt floss...uncomfortable butt floss. I just don't wanna try any more! Plus I've found really awesome boyshorts that don't ride AND cover most of my derriere (yayness!).
6. Red lipstick - This is another thing that I try at least once a year. It's NOT for me. The end. I will not purchase another red tube of lipstick this year *footstomp*
7. Long hair - I think I want to force myself to do more with my hair this year. The only way to do that is to keep it short. The longer it gets, the more the option of a ponytail becomes real.
8. Headaches - This one is easy...kinda. If I constantly took my medication...it may help *sigh*
9. Confusion - This is where the lists come in again. I'm always feeling lost. If I make maps, I won't get lost...hopefully =) Here's a toast to maps, like to-do lists and daily planners!
10. Frienemies - I can constantly do without these folks. I am always on the hunt to scout them out and rid them from my social circles. The drama free zone lets in so much more positivity. It's not hard to be positive when you have metaphorically clear and sunny days.
11. Fear - This is my biggest hurdle. However, I've already started jumping it. I made it over the first one, didn't even graze the bar. *sticks out chest*
Copyright © 2011 Natasha Guy
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Reverb10/11: Day 9!
9 – Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.
I didn't really party in 2010. I'm not a big party person. My best social gathering? Prolly the one with just him and me. I don't get much alone time with him, so it always means the world when I have him to myself just for a few moments. I don't remember what we ate/drank. I think I lost a few articles of clothing LOL *adjusts halo*. And well...there were obviously shenanigans galore! Interesting how he's infused in so much of my memories even though...well...THAT is for another post.
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I didn't really party in 2010. I'm not a big party person. My best social gathering? Prolly the one with just him and me. I don't get much alone time with him, so it always means the world when I have him to myself just for a few moments. I don't remember what we ate/drank. I think I lost a few articles of clothing LOL *adjusts halo*. And well...there were obviously shenanigans galore! Interesting how he's infused in so much of my memories even though...well...THAT is for another post.
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Saturday, January 8, 2011
*gigglez*
Purpose
The path to my heart is like swiss cheese
Very few avoid the potholes,
Falling like Alice through the looking glass.
OUCH!
Of the ones that reach the door,
Most ring the doorbell,
Setting off the trap door beneath the welcome mat.
SUCKA!
Hahaha hahaha hahaha.
Does ya ass hurt?
Oh...your feelings too?
TOO BAD, SO SAD!
Knock knock knock
For the unobservant few,
Awww...splinters baby?
*EYEROLL*
Let mama kiss it.
Feel better now, sweetie?
Good! Now change your diaper!
STANK ASS!
Him. He was smart.
He used the key.
Then he slammed the damn door!
OH NO HE DIDN'T!
Told me I better like it.
And I said,
"Yes, Daddy."
DOH!
DOH!
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Warring Worlds
War of Words
You have visions of grandeur.
I have dreams of love.
You have a backup plan for “us”.
My backup plan is you.
You call it being prepared for forever.
I say that gives us an expiration date.
You say I’ve always got one foot out the door.
I’m still waiting for both of yours to be inside.
You say, “It’s about time for me to go again.”
I ask, “When will you make time to stay?”
You give me another chance to watch you walk away.
I get another tissue to catch my leaking soul.
He says.
She says.
What does all of that say
About we, us, you and I?
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